I got back my common test results, and I really thank God for letting me do the best I could have done. I thought Math was a sure-fail , but it turned out, to my surprise, that I managed to get a distinction (Grade 6). I was a little disappointed with English, and especially Econs, where I got a grade 5 for both. But at least I’m really happy I did well for Physics and Chemistry, which got Grade 7. It turned out from this exam that Chemistry is my strongest subject, followed by Physics. Even though I de-proved overall by one point from last year’s promos (38 points), I think my results are fine at the moment. At least it gives me ample room to improve before the final exam, and hopefully I peak at the right time.

For the past month, I’ve been thinking really hard, trying to find out what’s wrong with tf attendance. I know attendance isn’t the only indicator of healthy growth, and it’s not the most important. But not knowing why this is happening makes me feel worse as a tuan zhang. I kept asking myself whether there was anything I wasn't doing right, wondering if it was my fault, and sometimes even thinking if I should have taken up the role this year. Well, till now, I don’t have an answer - I can’t account for the dismal attendance. But what Jacky told me today has given me a new perspective on things – those who come are truly seeking spiritual growth. So I could see it as like some sort of “pruning”, filtering those who truly want to be involved in fellowship, and those who aren’t really sincere about it. Sorry if I offend anyone, because I truly don’t mean to. In fact, I hope this serves as both encouragement and advice. Skipping church to pursue something else “for the glory of God” is something I feel strongly against, and which I find quite ironic.